I like the fact that by being here compared to where I use to be, I have freedom to say whatever I want to say and not have to be so concerned about my audience and thier reactions. it's hard to be a writer when you have to be worried about who you might offend.
I am not just some sniviling girl.
I am prissy at times and enjoy make up and even pose infront of my mirror when I'm alone but mostly I fart, burp, pick my nose and wipe my buggers under my desk. Theres alot of things I do that I highly believe most females do but just wont admit it.
I will not go out of my way and stand infront of the mirror trying to look hot before I go somewhere...if at first glance I feel good then I walk away and go with it. I think it takes my husband longer to get ready then me. And then after he's ready he keeps going back to double check. If you have to a do a double take and your not sure then give up and stay home cause your annoying the hell out of me and as I have written in another blog TIME is of the essence.
We have big plans for Friday night and Im super super excited. Me and some girls are taking over this little hole in the wall country bar and turning it upside down!! And I'm actually more excited to see the looks on the rednecks faces then I am to just be there having fun.
I love shocking people. I'm all about the shock factor.
GAWD I am so tired right now.
I dont want to write anymore. I want to curl up in my bed and put on some reality TV and make fun of stupid people I dont even know.
You know when I think about the whole "losing weight" quest I'm on I tend to ask myself exactly why do I want to do this again? because it's work. It's like a full time job and Lord knows I havnt had one of those in years. Aside from being a full time mommy.
I never really had issues with my wieght before. I new I was bigger then I was before but it never really concerned me because my husband loved me, my friends loved me so who really cared? Lets look at how I gained the weight:
Marriage alone adds 10 lbs immediatly (it does and you know it!) having two kids adds another 30lbs instantly (unless your one of those lucky women who lose it real fast...yeah yeah yeah suck a duck) and living out in the country adds another 10lbs....a MONTH
cause what do you do living in the country? NOTHING thats what you do! aAnd you slowly begin to enjoy doing nothing cause nothing is actually very fun. And also living in the country (coming from the big city) nobody really cares what you look like cause they are all fat too.
~I apologize now to all the big fat country people~
But today as I contimplated nutri-system I asked myself again WHY am I wanting to lose the weight and well....I have my answer and it may be shallow and stupid but it is what it is.
I want to look good in punk rock clothes.
It's my style and I want to rock it out and I cant cause fat people dont look to sexy in fish nets.
So there ya have it. Shallow as it may be. I want to be stylish. Who really gives a crap about health reasons. Not me. I just wanna be cute and shop at Hot topic.
well there may be one other small, tiney reason.....for my husband of 10 years who is a very sexual person and would love for me to bend in ways this fat girl just cant do right now.
Gosh I wanan lose weight so bad but I'm having such a hard time thinking about paying 290.00 for 28 days worth of food. I know it adds up and works out and all but it's just for me and ......well I feel like that's alot to pay for ME alone.
Most times I'm prefectly okay with being selfish.
But this time I'm actually thinking and re-thinking and maybe...it's just a cop out for eating healthy cause I really do enjoy my pop tarts but I'd also like to really enjoy sex maybe even with the light on.
I'm a city slicker stuck out in the country with lots to say and nothing to do. I'm addicted to reality TV and love stalking the lives of famous people. I'm not weird I promise JUST BORED. I'm married and have been for 10 years to the hottest man alive and have two amazing and beautiful insane little kids.